I received an email copied below (Jen, please email me if you want this removed) almost a year ago and I just decided to post it. Read the email and my response follows. The major theme is that the meaning of life seems to have been a struggle of younger days and that the search [...]

Some things stick out as if there is supposed to be some meaning that should be extracted from them. Is it the peculiarity of the moment? The expectations of the person in the first? Or just the examining of the moment inspired by the two? It is still January and in many ways it is [...]

There are 4 worlds: 1. The world you perceive 2. The world of possiblity 3. The actual world 4. The world that your drunk mind invented, creating the other three.

I have this fascination with self (only subtly leading to fascination with MYself). All this stuff about meaning and worth, and ultimate goals comes from our mortality. There is another experience that brings me to the same place that internalizing your own future, impending death does. This other experience is a bit hard to describe. [...]

I was rolling around, sleepless and angry as hell that I couldn’t fall asleep. This is pretty typical of me these days. I set down to get some rest and for some reason all the time I had throughout the day to ponder and work things out doesn’t seem help because I am intensely working [...]

I received the following email. My response comes after. What do you believe in? What compels you to wake each morn and retire each night? I just don’t get it. Life is supposed to be survival and procreation, but we’ve stripped ourselves of that. Why is it that [you] participate in demise—by contributing to a [...]

I’ve photographed tens of sunrises from my bedroom window; Each one the same and completely different. In the summer the sun rises behind downtown LA and the light is brighter with more yellows and shining whites. As we near the winter solstice the sun rises further to the south beyond the four palms present in [...]

Don’t ever forget that life is special. Don’t ever let yourself think that life sucks beyond reason for living. Life is, in the end, all you have outside of your sanity. When your life ends, so does the universe. Regret is for the living to make changes in the present. Which begs the question, “What [...]

I’m tired of asking what this life is about. I’ve spent so much time thinking about every goddamn thing that I’m just tired of it. Of all people Brad Pitt said on the Charlie Rose show, “Happiness is overrated.” That statement really struck me. For so long I have defined the criteria for a good [...]

Beauty exists on its own. It is that thing that became what it is from all the things before it, which all came from something previous to itself. The endless procession of infinitesimal moments, changes, differences, errors (relative to what?), mutations; things that are what they are as a consequence of the conditions that exist. [...]