It is an eternal question that men don’t really want answered. Why don’t girls know how guys are? Why don’t they understand how sexual we are? There are a couple parts to these questions. Is it that girls don’t know how guys are or that they don’t know to what extent? The male existence is [...]

I worry that as I let the tide take me, I’ll be safely adrift, not suprised by a swell that I should have seen.

The question is, how do I feel and why? It must be insecurity and social awkwardness. Now, I’ll say it is these things to resist my own interjection: I think about things too much and it causes me more confusion than solutions. In reality, both. I feel saddened like how you feel when you are [...]

Entering June. Second floor of my apartment at twenty-to-four in the morning. I love this time of year. Room temperature requires a box fan lodged in my window on medium speed blowing the cool spring/summer air past me. I fucking love it! I suppose the feeling is a throwback of some trapped idea of summer [...]

I have this fascination with self (only subtly leading to fascination with MYself). All this stuff about meaning and worth, and ultimate goals comes from our mortality. There is another experience that brings me to the same place that internalizing your own future, impending death does. This other experience is a bit hard to describe. [...]

Part of defining the answers is defining the question. At the moment, I have an intuitive idea that I want to define but I have not totally explored and flushed out the important factors. What I am thinking about is the idea of how women are viewed in terms of beauty and sexuality by men [...]

The most amazing thing happened last night. I got home around 1:30 in the morning and my youngest brother is having a sort of party with all his friends and a bunch of girls drinking and smoking with the stereo all loud as hell. I had a headache so I laid down in my room, [...]

I’m trying to figure out what it is about this post that aggravates me so much. (You can find a copy of the post here.) The difficulty is trying to be honest to myself at the same time not beat myself up. Before I go on, you really should read the post as I am [...]

What is this elusive thing I crave so much? Why is this thing, something I want so intensely, so seemingly difficult to attain? I’m going to put it all out right here, mostly because I am anonymous to most of you. I need someone. I am tired of being single. But I can’t just say [...]

I can’t begin to count how many times I have talked or thought about this, but once again the idea was illustrated brilliantly. I was having lunch at this big chain style Chinese food restaurante the other day. I sat in front of the window at a bar style counter looking out past the outdoor [...]