I received an email copied below (Jen, please email me if you want this removed) almost a year ago and I just decided to post it. Read the email and my response follows. The major theme is that the meaning of life seems to have been a struggle of younger days and that the search [...]

Alright, pops is in ICU and should be leaving in a couple days. Ryan went to see him and the doctor told dad…you’ll never guess…that if he wants to live, he’s got to stop drinking. I guess they are going to do a scan on his heart with radioactive die or whatever they do. Corey [...]

She says to me, “You seem sort of caught up in making sense of things, always; everything doesn’t have to make sense.” And I pause for a moment because intellectually I know this to be true. I continue to pause, then reply, “Sure, but that is more or less just a fantasy to me.” I [...]

I have this fascination with self (only subtly leading to fascination with MYself). All this stuff about meaning and worth, and ultimate goals comes from our mortality. There is another experience that brings me to the same place that internalizing your own future, impending death does. This other experience is a bit hard to describe. [...]