Here in California on the November ballot there was Proposition  8. In it was the constitutional amendment to define marriage as between a man and a woman. Thus the entire motivation for this amendment was to exclude homosexuals from the legal and emotional ceremony.  I had high hopes that people of California had finally arrived [...]

I worry that as I let the tide take me, I’ll be safely adrift, not suprised by a swell that I should have seen.

She says to me, “You seem sort of caught up in making sense of things, always; everything doesn’t have to make sense.” And I pause for a moment because intellectually I know this to be true. I continue to pause, then reply, “Sure, but that is more or less just a fantasy to me.” I [...]

I have this fascination with self (only subtly leading to fascination with MYself). All this stuff about meaning and worth, and ultimate goals comes from our mortality. There is another experience that brings me to the same place that internalizing your own future, impending death does. This other experience is a bit hard to describe. [...]